Waiting

There is nothing worse than waiting for something to happen when you know exactly what and how it is going to happen. I wish I was made of that stuff that allows others to say, I think it is going to be better this time. But I can’t. I am a good student, I learn from experience. That is why I do not eat ampalaya. That is why I do not drink and drive anymore (well, almost but not quite). That is why I am here, right now, almost sick with anxiety. I almost wish that when I wake up, it would be Saturday, and I would go walk Mang Pedring, buy banana cue and mango shake at the UP shopping center, and wonder to myself, where did Friday go?